Bible Study for Ministry, Christian Women, and The Pastor's Wife - I am Afraid, 1
It was so not what I wanted.
Our oldest (and at the time, only) child not even 19 months old was headed for surgery after numerous hospitalizations.
I will never forget that morning as long as I live. It was early in the morning and I had had very little sleep for a long time.
Even before he was born, we spoke words of love to him as well as many Scriptures.
Over the last week in the hospital, I had been working with him on Psalms 56:3. "What time I am afraid, I will trust in Thee." We had gone over that verse over and over, except I used "Jesus" instead of "Thee." He had listened intently and even told me "say again, mama."
But he had never tried to say it. I couldn't even coax him into saying one word of that verse. Not even once.
Although at the time he was using short sentences and would occasionally say a word that would surprise us. For example, I picked him up one day just prior to this hospitalization to wash his hands at the kitchen sink and he said "turn on the faucet, mama." (maybe he just liked to be "bossy.")
Faucet? Yes, and he said it correctly. That didn't seem like a word that should be part of the normal vocabulary words used by a one-and-a-half-year-old! But it was.
The nurse came in and told us it was time to head to surgery. We loved on him and hugged him just one more time. We had prayed with him earlier. She put him in the center of what seemed like an extra-large gurney for an extra-small boy.
We went as far as the double doors marked "Surgery." He looked up at me and said "What time I am afraid, I will trust in Jesus."
I lost it! I patted him and nodded my head "yes." I don't think he saw me break down sobbing in his dad's arms - perhaps he was through the double doors.
Yes, my son, "What time I am afraid, I will trust in Jesus."
After all, "The Truth is My Only Recourse...is God."
Be blessed in The Name above every name, Jesus! I know I am!
Linda L Culbreth
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